Love A Little Harder Today

Last night I said the words that have stricken fear in even the heart of my happy-go-lucky husband over the 15 years he has been married to me. 
Those words are:  "Something is really bad.  I don't know what.  But it's bad."  Those words were spoken at 11:30pm-ish pacific time as we finished up a long actuarial study session. 
The women in my family are like this.  We can have extreme intuition for large negative news events or events that will cause us to lose a personal family member. 

This morning I was afraid to turn on the TV and yet a feeling of already knowing and accepting was there, just as it always is when this feeling gets to me.

Now we all know what happened.  And it is shocking.

I will be praying for all the families whose lives have been affected by this horrific act.  I will wish for a restoration of peace, safety and over all well being for everyone involved.  I will hope that all of this sad and unnecessary evil will serve to bring loved ones together in a stronger way.

I will love a little harder today.

I Never, Ever Want To Forget This

Two weeks until test 5 of 9, three weeks until surgery.  I have so much respect for how fiercely my husband is facing up to these challenges.

I've never felt so good about being in a precarious middle.  Uncertainty has never been a comfortable place for me and yet this time it works because we're doing this together. 

Working hard on shared goals, this has been an amazingly wonderful time even though we are facing a difficult road ahead.  I want to always remember how good it feels to be charging on, growing and taking risks.  I especially want to retain the appreciation of what a strong and stable person my husband is.  It turns out it's not so bad to do scary things when you're not alone and I want to remember that risk taking is not just for times of crisis.  


I hope that everyone who reads this has a person in their lives that also makes them a better person- someone who helps you push yourself just enough to find out what you're truly capable of.   

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