Wednesday, April 16, 2014

This Time It's Different

Where the heck have I been lately???

Ah, I have been scrubbing and painting and selling and trashing and planting and just plain getting this house ready to sell!

I had the first of many garage sales, that will end up with me having very little of what I currently own, last Friday.  I sold so much that I barely had anything to take to the Goodwill after the sale.

My husband has applied for a remote position with his current company just in case we have trouble with him getting another job in SoCal.  Either way, we have both agreed there will not be another winter spent here.  Nope, it's just not happening.  We'll probably have a more definitive answer as to exactly what job my husband will end up at in another month.  It sure would be nice if we weren't so darn responsible and were willing to just go without employment.  But these days, that's just not prudent...

All I know is that throughout this whole process of wanting and planning to move, we've never been more certain of a direction and a purpose.  So Southern California it will be.  And I am still in shock as to how good this feels and how right it all seems.  Although Texas is a place that feels welcoming and wonderful, I am now feeling that Southern California is a place that has always lived in my heart.  I know I need to experience living there, at least for a while.  It's not simply a coincidence that we ended up with a second home in Southern California.  And our hearts literally ache every time we leave our place in Palm Springs.  Now it's time to make SoCal our full time home.  (Yes, all words of not being willing to do such a thing are being eaten as you read this!)

What I long to be closer to......

Now for another thing that's different this time around.  This one is not so much fun, but honestly to be expected. 

My sister went to prison last Thursday to serve out her time.  She failed in the drug rehab and was caught lying to the drug court judge.  She won't be spared this time.

Of course I am disappointed, but again not surprised.  As my nephew so appropriately commented:  "Why can't she just do what she's supposed to?"

I'm sure I will have deeper feelings about this at some point.  Honestly, right now, I have just accepted the fact that this is who she is.  For now, I feel stronger than ever that moving on from my sisters drama is the healthiest thing to do.

And in that direction, I shall head back to my moving related tasks.  Heck, at least it keeps me busy enough not to cry at all the government overreach that is currently scaring the hell out of me!

How about you?  What's up in your world?  Are you headed in a new direction?


  1. Ah, Jasmine, what a mixture of happy/sad.

    I am sorry about your sister, but given everything that I know... not surprised. I feel badly for your nephew. It is difficult for an adult to accept this sort of thing, so I am so glad that he has such an amazing support system in his dad and YOU. I am sure that it makes it all go down easier for him.

    That must have been some Yard Sale. How does it feel? Do you feel lighter? Every time I've shed a bunch of Stuff I think about the Native Americans and how few possessions they owned. I know that I will NEVER get there, but I always feel lighter. And that is good.

    I love the pic you posted. Who doesn't want to live in sunshine??? It is one of the reasons I love Florida!!!

    1. Nathan has shocked me lately with his maturity. He seems tired of the drama as well. We will get through this stuff and come out stronger. We are thinking about having Nathan and his Dad move with us to California!!!
      Only the first of many yard sales to come... it was awesome!
      That picture is a snapshot I took on the last day we were in Palm Springs last month. That is the pool that is closest to my unit. :) Have I mentioned that Nathan is working towards earning a trip to Vegas by working hard at his school subjects?! Turns out that Vegas is something he has always wanted to see!

  2. I've been dealing with irony. Beautiful pic. I'm a bit jealous.

    1. Yes, irony. That's all over this post, isn't it?!
      Don't be jealous. Come and visit me in Palm Springs. We have lots of room.
      I've always said a visit to Alaska is in my plans someday. Maybe when I'm tired of the summer heat in Cali some day!

  3. Removing/releasing yourself from your sister's problems is the healthiest thing you can do for yourself. Congrats on the yard sale and the move. I'm sure y'all will be happier and more peaceful in your new home.

    1. This time it's also different because I'm not all worked up and into her drama. I just can't do it anymore.
      When we get to stay in California, I think I will finally feel more myself than I have in a long time!

  4. It's so emotionally soothing to live where one is comfortable. We should all find that one important place. Good luck on all your sales.

    1. Having never had the chance or a reason to think of living somewhere outside of where I have always been, in the northwest, it is amazing how much better I feel when I am in a warmer southern location. My family has always discouraged anyone from leaving the 'fold' and ostracized anyone who even thought of moving more than a few miles away. It was all part of the control exerted to keep everyone on the same page.
      For now SoCal feels quite familiar and we have spent so much time there that it is an obvious choice. It just took me a while to see that. You don't know what you don't know if you are told over and over that you shouldn't want anything else.
      As for the sales- I appreciate your wishes! My process is to fill the guest room with stuff as I go through and price it. Then when the room is full it's time for another sale!

  5. Letting go of a toxic person you love is very hard. But it is healthier...I hope you and your nephew and his dad are able to all feel good going forward. Good luck with your move. Beautiful pictures.

  6. I'm excited to here/read that things are moving forward and you are getting closer to the warm sunny life! The photo is beautiful and makes me long to move there as well!

    I'm sorry to hear about your sister, but I agree that moving on away from this drama will be better for you in the long run.

    I've missed reading your blog. I'll have to catch up soon.
    I hope all else is well with you!


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