One friend mentioned to me that she understands just how difficult it is to manage deep attachments while simultaneously letting go. She hit the nail on the head.
|Hammer And Nails by mrpuen, found at: freedigitalphotos.net|
I have lived in this area of the country my entire life. I have some friends whom I have known since before I started school. These are actually the friends that I have had the least trouble with remaining close to, even as I go through the process of moving away. I think I've known that we've been through enough as lifelong friends to know that we will make it in keeping contact, even when I am far away. It seems to be the newer friends- the good neighbors, the friends I've only had for a few years that have been the sticking point for me. I have been avoiding them and keeping my distance.
I've realized that I have been holding back because I think I've felt that it's wrong to get close to people that you don't have that much history with and then just pick up and leave them behind. I've also realized that I'm being hurtful by suddenly pulling back my attention and time, just to supposedly keep these people from being hurt.
Being afraid of hurting people has led me to be hurtful- even though I never meant to be.
Sometimes it's just tough to do the right thing. And sometimes people get hurt. But I've come to see that spending time laughing, playing cards and making memories is not wrong.
|Playing Cards by foto76 found at: freedigitalphotos.net|
People deserve whatever you've got to give them, for however long you can. And I can't know if those connections are going to last beyond 1,200 miles or if they will simply be pleasant experiences for today. And that's OK.