Are you that person that doesn't worry or fret about much of anything and it all just works out for you?
I am a person who doesn't envy much... at all, really.
But oh how I would love to be one of those carefree, footloose souls.
I am working on trusting the universe and knowing deeply that things will work out as they should for all of us. I feel pretty confident that living whole-heartedly and trusting go hand in hand. And if you've been reading for a while you know that is a big change for me. For so many reasons, trusting doesn't come naturally for me and living as if there really isn't anyone or anything out to get you is pretty new to me too.
But sometimes I still get it wrong. Cuz' living life in a genuine way doesn't guarantee anything. But then again, living with fear doesn't either. So I guess I'm learning that it's best to live as if life itself is not out to get you. And then if something crummy happens in a moment of misjudging, I'll just be human after all. And that's way better than a fearful emotional mess of a human, anyway.
This insight was brought on by a moment in which I thought I was silly to think the worst possible outcome and then very nearly experiencing just that. I should have trusted my instinct and not brushed away my doubts as being just negativity creeping in. $1072.00, an endoscope and the thought that I might have actually permanently harmed my sweet little guy will hopefully teach me to recognize the difference.
No animals were actually harmed beyond minor discomfort- thank goodness!