We Came Back Home To The Northwest And It Was Still Sunny!!!

I think all this sun has gone to my head! 

I mean how am I supposed to act when I come back from Palm Springs and the sun is still shining all the way up north around here?  And even for Easter Sunday???  Now, that's a rare treat in these parts...

So I think I kind of lost it for a while and checked out. 

In an effort to make a decent blog post I thought I'd try one of those nifty question lists.  I honestly did not look past the first couple of questions before committing to going right ahead with this post.  Sooooo.... here we go!

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?  Probably about 23.  I'm 39 irl.
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?  Definitely never trying.  Not trying is just as bad as having someone do everything for you.  You never get the chance to fail- and that's important.
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?  Good question.  I think a lot of people feel like they have to do things they don't like.  As you get older you do less of that.  It took me until I was 30.
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?  Uh, yeah... cuz' I talk A LOT.  But I Do an awful lot too.  Just ask my husband.  He can't keep up with me.  Still, it is just easier to talk more.  You can even do it while you're doing other things.  Just ask my elementary school teachers....
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?  Right now- almost everything.  I feel like the whole world is upside down and backwards.
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?  Chatting it up with friends!
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?  Definitely what I believe in.  Don't have it in me to do it any other way.
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?  I wouldn't know any different so I'd probably be doing things the same.
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?  At first, not much.  But after 30 it's been all look out world- here I come!
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?  I used to have to have everything as perfect as it could be.  Then I realized I was a stressed out basket case that wasn't fooling anyone.  So yeah- the second part of that question.
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do?  Stick up for my friend and talk up all her positives, OF COURSE!
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?  Hmmm...  Maybe to stay true to themselves so matter how much they like what other people are doing or feeling.
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?  Yup.
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?  Yes.  Actually my own mother illustrates this beautifully.  She is probably always going to be pretty insane and that has always made me sad.  However, her creativity is so fabulous that I can often smile through the tears.
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?  I pretty much accept that I am an odd duck.  I don't do much that would be seen as conventional.  My husband loves this about me.
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?  I figure my strange perspective on so many things is most likely the reason.  Otherwise I just don't get it, because everyone should love what I love.  Don't you think?! 
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What's holding you back?  Learning to fly a plane.  I'm just waiting for my husband to get his FCAS designation.  That will mean we have the money and time for me take on this wonderful new endeavor. Don't worry.  I WILL DO IT!
    
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?  Yeah, probably the hope that my sister or my mother is ever going to change.  I know they won't in my rational mind.  However, I hate giving up hope.
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?  Oh come on!  This is actually on the list?!  OK, so let's all say it together- TEXAS!  Now as for another country that would be Mexico if it wasn't so dangerous now.
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?  Not anymore.  I did for a long time.  Then after being married to my husband I realized that there really is no need to do this.  Some of his quiet, secure ways have rubbed off on me over the years.  And vice versa- I have done quite a bit to bring him out of his shell.
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?  I have been way too much of a worried genius this time around.  In my next life I am so going for the joyful simpleton.  I think I'm working on a head start on that these days.
22. Why are you, you?  Because God wanted me that way.  And I have been fortunate enough to experience a lot of different things in life- both good and bad.
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?  I honestly try.  But no, not always.  Sometimes it's worse to just go along to get along.
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?  Definitely losing touch with someone right near you.  Sometimes you just don't know why.  And some long distance friendships can pick right up where they left off every time you see your friend.  I love that!
25. What are you most grateful for?  My husband.
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?  Never being able to make new ones.  The latter part of my life has been so much more worth having memories of.
27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?  Absolutely yes!  A person's truth is often already inside them.  People who have to question every side of everything drive me nuts!
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true?  Unfortunately, yes.
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now?  It still shapes my life, but I'm grateful for it now.
30. What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special?  When I got to do things like walk down to the store with a friend or cousin.  I felt free and able to make choices of my own.
31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?  When I finally told the truth to people that I had never been honest with before.
32. If not now, then when?  Whenever things work out...  I'm learning to trust that timing is what it is and you can't rush things.
33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?  Not much anymore.  And that feels wonderful!
34. Have you ever spent time with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?  Not really.  But I love this idea.
35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?  I don't think religions cause war.  I just think wars happen in spite of how much we all wish that the world was all love all the time.
36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?  For the most part- yes.  However there are those things and people that are deceptive and manipulative so you have to be careful.
37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?  As much as I enjoy it, hell yeah!  I'd enjoy doing different things and not worry about having to get paid to do them.
38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?  Less work.  There's so many other things to try.  Maybe then I should find some way to get paid to try stuff!
39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?  No!  Never!  That's the best part of being me.  No two days are ever the same!
40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?  Last November- when we purchased our vacation home.
41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?  My husband.
42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?  No, but I have to admit I had to think about the extremely attractive thing for just a second there....
43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?  Anybody can be alive.  Only a small percentage of people truly live.  I am working to be on the truly living side of things and I feel as if I am certainly getting there.
44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?  As often and as much as humanly possible!
45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?  For me I don't want to hurt anyone.  I think we all get caught up in that quite a bit.  Other than that I'm not really afraid.
46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?  I might try politics!
47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?  I honestly do not remember.  As long as I'm not having a bout with asthma, I don't think about it much.
48. What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?  I love hot sunny days, the times when I just know my husband is proud of himself even though he'll never say it, spending time with friends that goes so fast that it's 2am before we know it, watching my nephew learn important life skills that he doesn't even realize he's getting and wiggly goofy dogs that make me belly laugh!  At least that's my list for today.  I have done so much to incorporate the things I love into my life lately.  And it is so worth it!
49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that?  Probably not.  I might remember Easter day this year as it was so very beautiful and fun.
50. Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?  No question- I make them for myself now.  Sometimes I consult with my husband. ;)

If you got through all that, thanks for hanging in there with me.  This was fun and I hope you find it interesting!