Oh yeah, some days can really feel like head to wall experiences if you get caught up in this little hamster wheel of the universe.
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So right now I'm thinking that I hope this is the last time around for me needing to learn that it's OK to be in uncertainty. Not that this will be the last time that I'll ever have uncertainty... Nooo, that's completely unrealistic. I get that.
But this should be the last time that I ever have to equate uncertainty with getting all anxiety ridden, overly emotional and just certain that the only thing I could be certain of in a moment like this is that all things negative eventually grow out of uncertainty. Whew- did you catch your breath after that one?! (This is where those of you who were raised in households in which you needed to be hyper vigilant to avoid any possible upsets to the ol' family apple cart can rest assured that yes, this is a personal shout out to you.)
This time around I am learning that not only does life go on while we are in uncertainty; it can actually go on in a remarkably positive way. If you try hard enough to separate yourself from the queasiness that tends to take over in the midst of uncertain moments, those moments of uncertainty can lead to paying attention in sharp detail to every day things that will leave us with memories and appreciation that we might have otherwise missed.
Today, in this moment, that's where I'm at. I'm stopping to take notice of the little things. I'm listening with a more open heart. While it's true that I will probably always be more comfortable when things in my life are fairly 'settled', I am making a concerted effort to allow the positives that always exist- even when life is a bit out of sorts, to come through. I want to experience the best life has to offer, no matter how unsettled I might be feeling.